I hope someday I can grow up and get on with my life as days go by I seem to learn how to let go of many emotions in my life and in my mind. Do you think that there is more to life than just surviving but yet being not on top of the world ? I could guess most people think about that alot through out life.Maybe people live to live but not to survive but to change the way you take things and the way u use life.Do you ever think that life could be so easy if you knew how to go through short cuts.I sometimes think about that alot just to wonder if I only knew this might happen that I would try to not make the same mistake. I thought it would be easy just to let every one tell me what to do instead of thinking for myself yet that got me no where. sometimes I dream about being older and having a nice house up in the country where I could live with my beautiful children and husband I adore, to not deal with the drama of every day life. Now that would be sweet lie candy!!! Let alone all I live for is God but in reality where does it stand when you have to choose God over your life the way you live and how u use ur time wisely? well it seems if i dont i will end up livng a parishable life that wont satisfy my whole worth of living. Hey all I know is I live day by day and thats how it should be dealing with daily things at a time instead of worrying about the drama down the street. If you know what I mean. Drama seems to be every where I go and strags along where ever I am going like a leach attached only to ruin my life and how thats going it will take years before I am able to let that leach off me. I learn every day that I need to spend as much of my time with my self because I know if I lose my self when I am around my friends I know that I will lose my cool cause I have had a lot of issues with friends, ex boyfriends and just stupid people. You know if it wasnt for my best friend I would probably gone insane with all that is happening to me I have gone through so much shit I is overwelming to even think about.